“The Car – It’s my Personal promise to you that I stick to it. It’s yours.”

“You are not to worry at all, you are my daughter and your brother is my son. Concentrate on your work and make me proud of you.”

“Remember – Everything has its Beauty BUT not Everyone sees it. - Confucious”

…and of course, there are other secrets..z juz between abah & me…

if only - i was faster, it could probably save me from all d grumblings & accusations.

I was introduced to dis song months back. Since then, it became a top favourite. Very nice lyrics…accompanied by a beautiful melody.

Somehow today, wen i listen to dis song, tears flowed down my cheeks…



it was kinda weird i thot…so i google-d. and it says…

“To dream that you are at somebody else’s funeral, signifies that you are burying an old relationship and closing the lid on the past. You may be letting go some of the feelings (resentment, anger, hostility toward someone) that you have been clinging onto. If you are dreaming that you are at a funeral of an unknown person, then it suggests that something in your life needs to put to rest or put aside so that you can make room for something new. You need to investigate further what aspect or component of your life you need to let go.”

hmmm….well….ok…..how true? i duno.

Meaning courtesy of: http://www.dreammoods.com/

It’s late at night and I can’t sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can’t breathe thinking of your smile

Every kiss I can’t forget
This aching heart ain’t broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
‘Cause I know this flame isn’t dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
‘Cause I ain’t giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
‘Cause I ain’t giving up on love
No I ain’t giving up on us

I just wanna be with you
‘Cause living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes

The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain’t broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
‘Cause I know this flame isn’t dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
‘Cause I ain’t giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
‘Cause I ain’t giving up on love
No I ain’t giving up on us

Baby can you feel it coming
You know I can hear it hear all the souls
Baby can you feel me feel you….

You know it’s time….

Baby you know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
‘Cause I ain’t giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
‘Cause I ain’t giving up on love

You know
Maybe it’s time for miracles
‘Cause I ain’t giving up on love

No I ain’t giving up love
I aint giving up no
no I ain’t giving up on us

monday, 28 june was d worst of all. it all juz happened one aft another. dd > $ issue > trust? > staff > tickets?! > d top person > … i think got a few more…worst of all…i felt so disregarded! wtf! and within 4 mths, i’ve lost my cool der.

recover overnite? not alwaz.  juz like some ppl. for me, for some issues, i can…i cld. but well…yah…same color hair…but d heart all different.

and den, i thot d game should be over soon. by d look of it, its still not. and i think, i am in d real game nw. seeing more of true colors too. someone said “take it slow. no rush. get to know d ppl well first. u nv noe who r ur frens…who r ur foes.” i agree. but i think i cant wait. i hv to do wat i can. time will not help me dis time.

dis life – is full of pretence. der’s fake ppl arnd. and i’m surrounded by many! suckers! hate dem!

but like abah alwaz said – work smart. i remember.

i can tear everytime i read their msgs. dey can be so shweet at times…irritating once in awhile…but dis is so far d best farewell msges i received.

d front cover

their messages for me

darlings' msges

boys' msges

sk's msg

their msges made me feel appreciated. *aawwwww*

thank you.

1) totally forgot abt my car loan. and its overdue. it wasn’t my fault totally. i swear! to stop d naggings & further accusations – i’ll hop on a long term solution. period.  2) waited almost 30mins for a parking lot to buy supplements for someone. finally got d lot; away for less than 6mins to get ’em and i almost got a summon! 3) arrowed for smthing which was not meant for me…if i din read wrongly. probably its a test. fine! i’ll do it. 4) baby got hit! altho not major, i still feel for it. baby is scarred.

wat shld i do? smthing is bothering me so much. i haven been slpg well and feeling proper for d past few nites since d relaxing trip. dis is seriously unhealthy.

like i was told – i have to organise my thots.