Satisfied…? I Am.

Wat i wanted in a room…how i wanted it to be…is coming to reality! Juz a little bit more to splurge on…and it’ll be completed! A cozy self-decorated room to call my own. Let’s spend a little bit more…Weeeeeee!

The Sunday Times, June 15, 2008:

I So Want To Be Happy by Sumiko Tan

“But why is it so hard? Is the pursuit of happiness making me miserable instead?”

When a dream comes true, you don’t always get the happiness you thought would come with it;

Happiness is not something you can feel every moment of the day;

Happiness comes in small doses, so just be grateful for that;

It’s pointless to wish for a Big Happiness because it won’t happen;

Perhaps happiness is overrated.

Wikipedia describes happiness as am emotion associated with feelings ranging from contentment and satisfaction to bliss and intense joy. It is said that about 50% of a person’s happiness depends on his genes. A further 10-15% comes from variables such as socio-economic status, marital status, health and income. The remaining reasons do not have a discernible cause.

I so yearn to be happy and I so want to be happier. The irony is that this hunger and search for happiness is perhaps the reason I often find myself unhappy.

The problem with unhappiness is this – it doesn’t last, and it is subjected to the law of diminishing returns.

Some scientist believe that everyone has an innate happiness “set point” to which he will invariably return to.

Good and bad events may move you from this set point for awhile, but you can’t permanently raise or lower your in-born happiness level – or so the theory goes.

What is clearer is that, like most things in life, happiness is subjected to the law of diminishing returns – to attain something you wish for does make you happy, but only up to a point. Beyond that, more and more of that thing adds less and less to your happiness.

Happiness is so hard to come by, yet when I do find it, it either doesn’t last long, or it loses it magic after awhile…

Still, one could argue that happiness would be meaningless if you felt happy all the time. How can you understand happiness unless you have lived through unhappiness and compare the two?

The trick perhaps is to learn live for the moment and appreciate what you have.

It is hard to be happy when you are stuck in the past or the future. It is hard to be happy when you chase after happiness, forgetting that, hey, it could be well right there, staring at you.

**Project Updates:

1st phase – COMPLETE!

08.07.2008

I turned a year older.

• Birthday Stats:
• Birthday Wishes (sms, calls, frenster, facebook, msn, etc): 46
• Birthday Cake: 6 (yummy!)
• Birthday Prezzies: 6 + 1 (for me to noe ;p) + 1 (project on d way)
• Birthday Treats: 2

Thanks to ALL whom made 07.07.2008 – 08.07.2008 a day neva to forget!

I’m glad, i’m remembered.

I had a fair bit of everyone to celebrate with. 

Fren who loved me, ex-colleagues who adored me, and of coz  – d ppl behind me alwaz ~ those under one (huge) roof

Little surprises…more surprises…d birthday song…SWEEEET!

I have to share dis. Reading it made me teared.

“Dear Adik,
 25 years has passed – you’ll be 26th. at end of today.
I’m sure you’re happy with what you’re doing – career wise and also fullfilling your obligations to your mother and members of the family. Keep it Up.
My advise – Never look back, go ahead. The past is history, learn from history and be as creative as you could to achieve your objectives.
Be a Good Girl as I’m very Proud of You.
A Very Happy Birthday to You.
Abah – plse. do not forget me when having your Birthday Celebration.”

My reply:

“Dearest Abah,
 Its really fast to be 26. Many changes has taken place, be it big or small – I still have to pull through..and always trying so as not to affect others in the slightest way. But by doing that, I have to withstand the pains myself. I’ll always tell myself to take it in d positive way though – I see them happy, it makes me happy.
 
Career – I believe no job is easy. Its a matter of how I want to handle it. So far so good. I am comfortable and coping well. I just got an increment..and my contract ends this Sept. Hope they’ll renew it *cross fingers*
 
Family – Fulfilling obligations is a responsibility. The outside environment (friends, life changes, work commitment, etc) could be a barrier and threat for me to fulfill those obligations…i dun deny that. I see it as something of whether I want to do it or otherwise. The least that I asked for is people to appreciate my doings for them…to appreciate the time that I sacrificed for my own happiness & freedom for them. I dun ask for much.
 
Life is short Abah. I want to work hard and earn like you so that I can dun depend on others. I would also want to try out new things in life…and lead a life like how a young adult should be living their life. As I get to know more people, I see that we are restricted by race & religion. The way we are brought up in life also differs individually. The dos & the don’ts…the cans & the cant’s…
What about age? Are we supposed to be restricted to what we can do & how far we can go by the age?
 
Your advise – Never look back, go ahead. The past is history, learn from history and be as creative as you could to achieve your objectives. — I agree with it alot. I will remember it always.
 
I have always been proud to have you as my dad too..although we dun spend time like other father & daughter does. I have always been motivated with your way of getting things done.
 
My Birthday Celebration – I had a fair share of everything.
Had 3 cakes…from friends, ex-colleagues & family. I received over 30 wishes through sms-es & calls too. Received 3 presents. I was told there are pending presents too *winks*
I treated mum, bro & wife, the 2 lovely kids & aunty’s family to a sumptuous dinner. Ended beautifully…of course, u were not forgotten
 
Thanks for d morning birthday call and this email Abah.
 
Take care always.
Adik”

That was the 1st time ever that I said of those things to him.

Duno why…but I just wanted someone to know.

His reply then:

“Dear Adik,
 I’m the proudest dad on earth after reading your email. Don’t let me and your mum down. All of us love you.
 Let’s pray that you reach to the peak that you desire.
 Would treat you and everybody when I’m back next for a “belated Birthday” celebration.
 Have A Good Evening, Abah”

I thot that was really sweet laaa…so I got emo…ahakz!

Anyway, I had fun the entire week. Pics will be uploaded soon

• Project Updates:
• 1st stage: 1st coat, 2nd coat…3rd coat = Fine looking
• 2nd stage: Ouuhhh…Perfect! Solid!
• 3rd stage: In anticipation *rolls eyes*