keywords

vulnerable

de-grade

emotional

take a break / take it easy

dun stress

tense

withdraw

heart & soul

personal

detach

politics

appreciate?

TRUST

S.I.A.N

…can’t help it. but i’m feeling super sian. damn sian. how else to describe it? terribly sian. annoyingly sian. sian ahh!

D for…

• Dimwit
• Despicable
• Disgraceful
• Dreadful
• Dishonourable
• Disrespectful
• Damn!
• Dilemma

Haven had enough…or more than enough?

der’s so much to do…der’s so much to do…but i dun hv dat muc time to do. how? d to-do list is getting longer & longer & longer…*pouts* and i dun seem to hv dat kind of energy to tahan anymore. y ah? am i sick of it? no more motivation? wic one? haiz haiz…

5 more days to d holy month…d month to test my inner strengths…d month to lose some weight (i hope). d stomach has been having it too good lately. lucky stomach!

wat is it now? wat am i saying ah? ahh…duno la.

confused myself.

Now like dat. Next time how?

ahh..duno ah. if i had remained my stand and not join; my ears wldnt change color. but for some other reasons, my heart says go…stay and wait; leave d ear burning. den indirectly, affect d innocent ones. dats bad. i know.

ok…i’m not a good actor. i cnt pretend. but at least, i’m true to myself.

well, like i said, i’m human too. i hv feelings.

New One. Urgent!

I wan a new trucker. I dun care.

i need a break.

der’s juz more reasons to make me not like my job now. aside the ppl at work (uurrgggh!), the insensitivity, the political stuffs, the spoon feeding, over-compassionate…bleah!

as d phrase goes “rules are meant to be broken” – so true.

let’s not waste our more of my time.

Charlie Chaplin’s words

“Life laughs at you when you are unhappy; Life smiles at you when you are happy. But, Life “salutes” you when you make others happy.”

I guess, Life was not able to “salute” me for long as Life is laughing at me now.

There’s a saying:

“When a chance is missed, you’ll never get it again.”

I missed it 3 times. Urrrghh!

What Have I Been Up To?

Upset – over the previous entry? Yes I am…Still. Bleah!

Since d last entry, i’ve been doing quite abit of everythin. The coolest was to get d time to really chill wif bud bud & jie jie. Dat nite - i thot was really nice! I juz loved d walking, eating, chatting, enjoying d cool breeze @ Esplanade, more chats, coffee-ing & d unexpected Q&A. Heee! But it was good laa. Some reflections, sharing & learning points. Bud bud! Let’s have more of those sessions!

Over d weekends, i got some free basic photoshop lessons. Now i noe d wonders of Adobe Photoshop. Amazing! I was a total dumbo on it previously. Abit of here & der now is possible. Yeay! Something to be proud of

Ahhh…to avoid dat “home alone” feel, i actually squeezed alot of  appointments. Errr…Someone had actually waited for 6 mths to get me!  Finally, yst, we met Alot of catching up done. Pretty good. And i was told before we parted that i should not go missing. “Keep In Touch!” Ok ok…u noe where to get me wat…

Besides being a nanny for a couple of days, i’ve been through some sickening, unwanted, irritating adventures at home. Ggrrrr! I’m all armed!

My Arms!

The Trap!

I’m getting very paranoid abt dat damn thing crawling into/around my house! I juz cnt stand d sight of dem! Thank GOD! I found a friend, and made new friends cum pest busters! Thank you!!! Oh ya…nothing beats the arms & the trap!

Awesome! My 3am Angels!

 Well…yea…alot of other things happened also…which i’m not too keen to share about.

Let it be juz me .

 

1st Mission Accomplished! Thank you – My ANGELS!

It’s 1.45am. I saw u! Damn it! Who can i call??

I activated a few ppl…even informed my mum who is like far far away. No replies. One replied though. Told me it wun disturb & will go away. Sorry, i dun buy dat. No..i will neva ever buy dat.

I called one of my twins. As usual, she laughed it off. But i managed to get her to come to my rescue. She was like 40km away from me. She was @ Terminal 3 Airport. But yes – she came! She came with 2 more frens. I’m freaking glad dey came.

I lay still on my bed till dey arrived @ 3.00am. I had all d weapons ready. ATTACK!

The ANGELS did it. I was standing about 5 metres away from dem. The ANGELS were tremendous! Swift & perfect! Unbelievable! One of dem took dat damn thing wif her bare hands! *Faints*

GOD knows wat will happen to me without dem. I duno how more to thank dem. Although dey were full of laughters for me…i’ll let dem laugh. I still have like 3 more weeks to stay alone. Might activate dem again.

Eerrrr…Will u gals come to my rescue again?