Upset because of work

ya…again. by d same fool. d same dog.

work is making me feel very unhappy lately. ppl are juz watching silently. more than 10 ppl are watching d episodes.  i’m suffering d most. all dey ever say is “dun bother abt him”, “relax”, “take it easy”…so easy for them to say. dey are not me. dey dun understand. dey dun feel wat i feel. hence dey can dun bother/relax/take it easy.

and wat else should i wait for? how long more is d wait? wat is next? wat will u do…? i guess, if no one helps, i’ll do it myself. i cnt let myself lie so low to be humiliated anymore! der’s a level to my tolerance! it’s been long enough.

if i get no help, u wun get mine either. i’ll think thoroughly now….to make a choice. my choice could be victory to one…but will not be for long. i promise.

stop barking at me dog! i’m not a dog like u!

S.I.A.N

…can’t help it. but i’m feeling super sian. damn sian. how else to describe it? terribly sian. annoyingly sian. sian ahh!

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thank you

…for the smile.

Not d 1st time 2day

…dat ppl said i hv d babyface.

ok…lets take dem seriously dis time.

ok…i hv a babyface.

agree??

heh! yay! i have a babyface! *lalalalalalala*

D for…

• Dimwit
• Despicable
• Disgraceful
• Dreadful
• Dishonourable
• Disrespectful
• Damn!
• Dilemma

Haven had enough…or more than enough?

der’s so much to do…der’s so much to do…but i dun hv dat muc time to do. how? d to-do list is getting longer & longer & longer…*pouts* and i dun seem to hv dat kind of energy to tahan anymore. y ah? am i sick of it? no more motivation? wic one? haiz haiz…

5 more days to d holy month…d month to test my inner strengths…d month to lose some weight (i hope). d stomach has been having it too good lately. lucky stomach!

wat is it now? wat am i saying ah? ahh…duno la.

confused myself.

Not one but two.

differences.

they made a difference to my life today…juz wif a simple line. twice.

and i’m contented.

Now like dat. Next time how?

ahh..duno ah. if i had remained my stand and not join; my ears wldnt change color. but for some other reasons, my heart says go…stay and wait; leave d ear burning. den indirectly, affect d innocent ones. dats bad. i know.

ok…i’m not a good actor. i cnt pretend. but at least, i’m true to myself.

well, like i said, i’m human too. i hv feelings.

What if…

…well, it was a wrong move. i shldn’t hav made dat those decisions. i’m regretting dem now. but its too late.

sigh…sigh…sigh

k, nehmind. it’s a lesson learnt. let’s juz take it dat he mis-used d opportunity dat was given to him. all dat was entrusted to him, is lost. i really meant it as lost. i doubt he can ever redeem it anymore…too bad for him la.

now, i’ll hv to be strong - to take watever is to come …in d next few days, weeks…till d day in sept.

i hv to be der for those tears. cnt bring myself to see u in agony.